I first attended MATC in winter of 2012. It was surely an eye-opening experience for me. I had never been exposed to anything like it and I’m so thankful that a Christian brother cared enough about me to share about his MATC experience and to invite me to attend. For the first time in my Christian life, I discovered how I have been living falsely through my false selves of performer, withdrawer, and judge, among many others. Almost daily now I catch myself living through one of my deep rooted false selves and I wonder if I’ll ever truly live my life like the genuine, broken, needy self that was modeled for me and the other attendees in 2012. But, looking back, I know for sure that I’m a different person now than when I first attended the weekend. — Dennis

I attended WATC in 2012 after hearing Dennis talk about the event and then later sharing his personal experience.  WATC gave me a voice and the ability to become aware of the anger that was pushed down under my Victim false self and great sadness.  Having the opportunity to invite God into the fight for my “little Sheila” brought about a deep since of peace and rest in the arms of Jesus before God.  The fight is being won.  I often find myself in a fight for “little Sheila” now and am able to sometimies invite God and find peace and rest along the way (or not and then have anger toward everyone present).  The understanding of a true and holy desire within has given me something for which to ask God and a place to see where I need to invite God.  — Sheila

 

Dennis Chung:

I first attended the MATC in winter of 2012. It was surely an eye opening experience for me. I had never been exposed to anything like it and I’m so thankful that a christian brother cared about me to share about his MATC experience and invite me to attend. For the first time in my christian life I discovered how I have been living falsely through my false selves of performer, withdrawer, judge among many others. Almost daily now I catch myself living through one of my deep rooted false selves and I wonder if I’ll ever truly live my life like the genuine broken needy self that was modeled before me and the other attendees in 2012. But looking back I know for sure that I’m a different person now than when I first attended the weekend. I know for sure that the weekend has made a difference in my life. I sense so much power, strength and courage when I humbly embrace my neediness, dependence, humanness. I had not experienced this until MATC. Sheila and I now regularly access the distinct MATC vocabulary to more fully communicate with each other. I understand when she asks me how I’m checking in today or suggests that we do a mini rock work on a particular issue or when she tells me about how the welcoming prayer in the morning got her “centered”. This is wonderful and we both are enthusiastic about inviting others around us to experience the same blessing of this ministry. I have staffed 7 straight weekends now and I feel like this is just the beginning of our growth as we progressively invite the MATC principles and practices into our daily lives.

 

Sheila Chung:

I attended WATC in 2012 after hearing Dennis talk about the event and then later sharing his personal experience.  WATC gave me a voice and the ability to become aware of the anger that was pushed down under my Victim false self and great sadness.  Having the opportunity to invite God into the fight for my “little Sheila” brought about a deep since of peace and rest in the arms of Jesus before God.  The fight is being won.  I often find myself in a fight for “little Sheila” now and am able to sometimies invite God and find peace and rest along the way (or not and then have anger toward everyone present).  The understanding of a true and holy desire within has given me something for which to ask God and a place to see where I need to invite God.

I have begun to feel anger that was suppressed for so long and WATC is giving me the tools and support I need to work through these emotions and the situations that created them so long ago.  There are days that I think this is just bullshit. I want to be done digging up the artifacts of my past life, but then the reality that these “rocks” are ruining my life today becomes too apparent.  So, in my reality I am learning to invite God into the thoughts, feelings, emotions, triggers.  I used to wear myself out fighting all those things.  I just don’t have the energy to fight all this trash.  Thankfully, I only have to remember to invite God.  I am losing control of issues, situations, circumstances; and I am more free, light, and carefree today than I was when I first attended WATC.  I am encouraging my son and friends to look at their emotions and see what God may be saying to them as well.

I think the thing impacting my life the most right now through WATC is the “Welcoming Prayer” and my beautiful sister in Christ who has walked me through it on many occasions.  God is using this prayer pattern to show me how to be free by letting go.  God is using this prayer as a tool to show me what’s really inside and asking me to invite Him to each thing He reveals.  I am in awe of what God is doing in my life through this prayer because I don’t have to do anything except agree with Him and invite Him into each step as He makes me aware of the real issues.  I am finally able to “get it” when I hear that Jesus’ yoke is light and easy.  Thanks to WATC, I can experience this light and easy yoke.  It’s painful to give up control, but I can finally feel the impact of not letting go.   I have a stronger resolve to be free of the control that has led to anxiety, loneliness and anger.  I am a Women at the Cross and I am letting go!!!

I love the safety of this group and the freedom I am finding in continuing to be a part of this ministry.

Learning to rest so I can be real.